The Tall and Short of US

Infertility has consumed me. Again. And taken such a heavy toll on all of us emotionally and mentally. Trying to get your body back into a good groove after a loss is a slow, painful waiting game. Sometimes it just really sucks to be two weeks late and getting negative pregnancy tests. Like a really mean trick. I am positive (pun  very  intended) that I have spent more money on Dollar Tree pregnancy tests than I have on makeup or cosmetics. They have a term for my kind. POAS Addicts (peeing on a stick). It's true and kind of gross, but also pretty funny. After the dreadful wait, I was finally able to start Clomid again. It was exciting and overwhelming all over again. Even though I've done this four times before, the fifth seemed to be just as hard if not harder. There is so much hope, wonder, waiting, fear, doubt, and frustration. But a positive test is no guarantee. At least I won't let myself believe that. Having a history of losses takes the fun out of a pregnan...

Lincoln is 18 months and so amazing. He is in the 25th percentile for weight and 75% for height! Definitely Thomas's child! He has 12 teeth and 4 more canines on the way. Escapee at the Doctor! I was going to write a list of all of his words, but they're just the typical (boring) mama, dada, dog, cat, etc. But I will list some of my favorites: -Freckle -Nipple -Boobies ;) -Fush (fish) Just s typical morning of coloring on ourselves with marker, chewing up breakfast and spitting it out, and being a ham! He also says "Where did it go?", "There it is!" and "Where did Dad go?". The first time he did that I just about keeled over. My baby is a boy! He also says "Bye dyes!" and waves bye! (Bye, guys!)  I'm still not sure where he learned "guys" but it kills me! He is so funny. We spend our days outside, on walks, kicking a ball, coloring, reading books, going to the library, and playing with ...

Being a mother is exhausting. Being a parent in general is exhausting. These tiny humans have so much energy in those itty bitty bodies. By the end of the day, after fighting bedtime and the 100 walks back to bed, Thomas and I both crash in pure exhaustion. This new sleep routine is rough. We're still trying to figure out what will work, but it's very time consuming. Almost every night I am tempted to just let Lincoln nurse to sleep in our bed.  Then I remember that having him in his own bed is way overdue and something I'm really pushing. It's getting a little bit easier with each night, but it's still emotionally draining for all  of us. But we're a team and we will conquer the overtired monster child! We will prevail! ;) I've touched on making sure we give enough time to our marriage, but I wanted to dive even deeper into my thoughts. My marriage is something I hope I never take for granted. I need to preserve and protect it with all my might. ...

I saw a blog named "I Love Naptime" today and I literally said "AMEN!" It helped that I saw this just after putting Link down for a nap. Soon after, I saw this quote and it also spoke to me. This morning, Lincoln and I went to the library. I checked out some books and let him run around the children's play room. While there, I met the sweetest mama. She had two little boys that played so well with Lincoln. As we talked, it was so refreshing to have adult interaction. Mom life can be really lonely sometimes, so it was nice to chat. Even though 99% of our conversations were about our children, it was still nice to have an adult around. I'm not sure what bit me in the booty, but I'm really getting into the groove of being a mom and loving every moment of it. Maybe it was my 'coming to Jesus' I had with myself about my phone, getting Lincoln on a better sleeping and napping schedule, or I just finally woke up from being such a Mombie. ...

I read this quote as a new mother and it has always been so dear to me. I know it may seem silly, but even when Lincoln was a newborn I felt like I was always messing up. It's natural to feel that way as a first time mom, but knowing I'm not alone brought a lot of comfort. Over the last few months, I've started to reassess my priorities. I found I was wasting a lot of time on frivolous things, especially  my phone. It was bad. If you know me, you know I'm always posting photos of my little tot and the things we do. I love sharing with everyone. That part wasn't sucking my attention. It was the mom groups. And they were toxic. In my first pregnancy, I found an online group of women that shared the same due date month as me. It was so fun to talk about symptoms, how we surprised our husbands, first kicks, ultrasounds, etc. As time went on, it was even more fun to see videos of first steps, first words, smiles, and everything wonderful about the babies. W...

Things have been pretty heavy these last few weeks, so I wanted to give a little update on all of us! Thomas started training a new class today at work. It's an 8 week course, but he's in Denver this round and boy am I thankful! I am traveled out! While I love to travel, I am glad we are at home in our own bed and not living out of suitcases. After this Summer, we are all traveled out! Thomas leaves early for the office so he can plan his day. He also gets home fairly late as well. I've been very spoiled with him working from home recently, so this is a big change. The good news is that I have a little bit of extra time to make dinner (or nap, blog, and Netflix! ;) ) Lincoln is nonstop and all over the place. He has 12 teeth and just busted out 4 molars in the last couple weeks. This kid is a champion. I didn't even notice them at first! They were coming in so quickly that his gums were even bleeding. He's such a trooper. He is climbing on top of EVERYT...